Searching For Something...

Have you ever had something or someone come into your life and remind you that something is missing? From new jobs, to babies, vacations or new relationships. Things and people can come along that somehow change your perception of your life. I just had this happen to me. Someone came into my life and for some reason things changed. I looked at life differently. It was for the better. Then there was sort of a break in the relationship and then a rebuilding if you will. However, the whole experience has made me different. It changed things. It brought out feelings in me that had been shelved for years. Feelings I had forgotten about or had purposely locked away. The relationship is different now. In some ways, but then again it's not. Yet, somehow I am different and the life that I was happy with a few months ago no longer satisfies. I am now restless. Searching for some feeling or experience or something to fill the gap of those feelings I once had. I'm not sure I could actually define the feeling. I just know I liked it and now I want it back. It's a strange and scary place. It makes you want to be impulsive and just run off and join the circus or something. It can also be a lonely, sad place. Looking for something that you can barely define. So, either I will find a replacement for that feeling, rediscover it somewhere else or just go back to being content with the way things were.


I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For-U2

I have climbed the highest mountains
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you.

I have run, I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you.

But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her finger tips
It burned like fire
(I was) burning inside her.

I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone.

But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.

I believe in the Kingdom Come
Then all the colours will bleed into one
Bleed into one.
But yes, I'm still running.

You broke the bonds
And you loosed the chains
Carried the cross of my shame
Oh my shame, you know I believe it.

But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.

But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.